Driving down the one way road out of Hell
It's finally my last day so
I had to make a stop at the gas station in preparation for a long ride back to the skies
I open my door and there you are
a face still as hard as I can remember, piercing eyes, your looks killed
in addition, I see you have more gashs, tears, and cuts pouring from your skin
standing there, a feeling comes over me and I realize this is my final chance to say goodbye
so without getting too close, my egoless words start to leave my mouth
I didn't feel fright at all
until I start wondering where you get off thinking you still have me the way you thought you did?
the embarrassment of your assumption is a misfortune
have you no respect for me?
have you no respect for yourself?
and no, you never had
or could have
because I'm mine!
so this way you speak to me, as if to say you are superior
like you shit some sort of shitty gold, when really burning ash releases from you!
can no longer continue
and I empathize
living in a scorching mind of hate, anger, sadness, jealousy, envy, the list goes on....
can not be soothing for the soul
and I always play a fifty fifty chance on the outcome with you
but I see you are still withering away. bit by bit
and I was frighten, not by your words but by how my body and mind would react
because I always play a fifty fifty chance on myself when it comes to you
and every action is a choice
so this time I am filling up my tank for good! and hitting the high road
I will not let you spew your poison onto me, that's why I didn't get too close
I wanted to close my wounds, never wanted to touch yours
but you wanted to keep my wounds open by taking a salt packet out of your pocket and throwing it at me for fucksakes
because your battered mind can't even reach the capacity of wanting to understand that
accountability is important so your growth can be real
forgiveness is important so your love can be real
lessons have to be learnt so your progression can happen
and you gotta clean out your mental closet so new thoughts can be invited in
So now, watch me leave this city of Hell as I make space for the skies!
so long and farewell