Half Lived Life Poem by DrTP Sasikumar

Many a time I have suffered loneliness

And feared the onslaught of isolation

Afraid of ridicule my face lost its charm

Fear of failure impelled me

To abandon brighter options at hand


Half my life is ended before I learn

That what I have lived until now

Is not a meaningful life!

On this bright and sunny day

I resolve to start afresh and live it anew


Yet again I am in search for new meaning in life

No longer will I distress myself

No more of gloom do I see

But the stars in the heavens glaze for me

I believe that I will gain wisdom today


The search comes to a standstill

With the discovery of the self

I have learned to feel affection for myself

To trust myself to be fearless in life

I have learned to be grave to achieve distinction


I have rejected habits to be faultless

To live longer than my habits sought

Growing old while still in youth

Climbing the ladder to an ideal life

The future gazes at me, dazzling and attractive


But this is short-lived happiness too!

On second thoughts I wonder

If living long is thrilling and pleasurable;

My greatest effort to attain wisdom

Crashes to a sudden halt even before it begins


'No pain no gain' goes the proverb.

Make it short and joyful too

Take of life what it gives to you

Burn yourself in the joy of life

From the embers into a glowing flame


The notion 'truth shall prevail' strikes me hard

Truth follows falsehood as sunlight the dark;

But love is untruthful dictates the brain,

A late realisation for my reluctant heart

Causes me grave pain within


I deem change to be the outcome of destiny

Change makes me beautiful too

From pupa to larva, a beautiful butterfly

Through the stages of metamorphosis

To the glory of dappled dyed flight


'Change is the only thing with no change'

Is a thought that brings no more cheer

Life is too brief, reminds the brain

The heart thus fears to acknowledge beauty

In the short changing span of life


The ray of hope I saw is no more

When this bright day comes to a close

I return to the sordid gloom of where I began,

Half my life is lived only to learn

I have not lived a meaningful life!


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