Hard To Fight Poem by Maruji Love

I don’t know what nor how I feel.
I want not to care about it.
But it’s all over me and I can’t resist.
I hate this and I hate myself either.

I gonna walk on by without.
But things didn’t spare me.
Being alone is better, yet fears inside.
I’m afraid something went wrong.

Why I’ve lost my strength now?
Like somebody had it and stay.
For I am surround by so many doubts;
I want to stop and turn left or right.

I wanna turn the moment I neglect.
For this not to happen in me by now;
I wish life is perfect for everyone.
But maybe I’m not here exactly as I am.

I wish life’s full of smile and laughter.
But I’d hope this too shall past and repair.
And everything gonna be alright.
Yet, it is too hard to fight.