Hate Poem by Yui Mikazuki

I really fucking hate you.
I know i shouldn't but i really fucking do.
You were suppose to be my protector,
But all this time you're just a fucking manipulator.

I rather die than live with you forever.
You and I never really bond with each other.
If I have the chance to leave,
Then i would go as if i have no more time left to live.

I hope that someday you die,
And no this isn't a lie.
I genuinely thought of it every time i cry,
Since you were the reason why my tears were never fully dry

I always hated you inside,

And I dont want to set it aside.
I have always been confrontational,
But I dont think i can confront a wild animal.

It almost feels like you hope that I fail in life,
And it's stabbing me like a fucking knife.
Why the hell did you let me exist,
Even though all i am heading for is the exit.

I am not ungrateful,
Nor am I acting pitiful.
When life does not have any purpose,
Then its only destiny is for it to dispose.

For you, I am just a tool.
Treating me like a damn fool.
I am not your puppet on a string,
For I never intended to be some thing.

I am a human being,
But I am still waiting for a new begining.
In this place, I was never living,
For living is different from suffering.

Maybe someday I will make you cry,
While begging that you will try,
But trying will not erase the past,
For these strong negative feelings will still last.