Heavy Poem by Sharon Namwalizi

My eyes carry
an invisible weight
one that has stayed
silent
for what feels like too long

And when I try to open my mouth
words betray me
no—
my thoughts correct me

Is there really anything to complain about

Not long ago
these thoughts were a trap

I failed to acknowledge
my flesh
not its impure lust
but its cry for help

I denied it until I felt nothing

I have learned to let it feel
to speak things aloud
and it begins to make more sense

I begin to see the hand of the Lord more clearly
and the place I stand within it
how He is for me
and not against me

My mind was right, but it needed heart

They say truth without love wounds

I didn't realise
the day the plastic knife
turned silver

But I am healed now
though I tend to forget
I am human.
I should pin that to my wall

Blocked letters

I AM ALLOWED TO FEEL.

Being spiritual; trusting in God
does not dismiss that

And I am glad
my Father Himself tells me that.

23: 38 — 26/5/26