How Long More To Wait? Poem by DUUT NADJAT ZUBERU

Before I met you,
I was certain my next would be the one.

Then you showed up
with everything I had ever hoped for.

Not when I expected,
but life has its own way
of answering quiet prayers.

And now here we are
standing in uncertainty.

I thought we were past that.
I thought we both knew what we wanted
because all I have ever wanted
is you.

So tell me,
was I just a chapter
in your healing?

Because this hurts.

Sleep escapes me,
focus slips away,
and there's an ache in my chest
I don't know how to name.

What are you uncertain about?
Is it me?
Do you think you deserve better?
Or was this always temporary?

I know
I can't control how you feel.
And maybe love
doesn't always stay.

But still, part of me wants answers,
to understand, while another part
is terrified
of what the truth might be.

I wanted this to be different.
I wanted us to be different.

All this time,
I thought I was chasing love
but maybe
I was only searching
for clarity and certainty.

And now I'm scared to even ask for that
while you're still unsure if you can give it.