How Long War -Who? Poem by Roger Gerald Hicks

Fracture!
My mother,20, own house,
leaves perfectly strong man,
100 miles drives
to Hawthorne place of great-grandmother
deposits me in dirty diapers, like a bad check.
She on to become worldly educated.

Terrified of stern, three, missing dad, never
smiling grandmother no matter what grow
eat, poop, lie, listen talk, the
radio, fight, cry, learn to shoot
sling-shot, bird names, little sad songs, fly
kites. Some direction. School. Sticks. Steps.

Saw dad, mom occasionally, mysterious tide
flow on variant schedules different
goals and means. He found one day hill overlooking
Burbank airport, said, "Strong."
He great war leaving far oceans. Nations needed
us. Fracture!

I,5 cried and continued cried life mostly, cry
fills eyes black blobs dizzies every life day. Tears throb
seasons random crazy.

Unloved growing burden on who cares- feel some
evil child deserving nothing. God punishes crimes
I ignorance commit.

Do all wars forever? would my dad. would my mom.
would warmth and bounty...
i question -i never the war, never.
nothing ever went. destroyed
i London, i bombed Berlin,
i Hero-She-Ma cloud-dark. i core my life.
child wrong parents. wrong war world. wrong.