I Am So Numb Inside Poem by ally lira

i am so numb inside,
i cannot feel it
anymore.

the pain you caused
is gone
the hate for you
has disappeared.

i am so numb inside
i do not feel for you anymore.
i thought that i could live
without you.

but now i know
i cant.

i wish that i still had you, with me in my dreams.

i know that it will
never work
since i screwed up big.

i am so numb inside
the meds dont even work.
why won't you say your sorry
and actually mean it for a change.
i said that i was sorry
and actually meant it.

i am so numb inside
do you remember
when i cried?

i wanted to slap
you so hard,

so you could see
how i felt inside.
if you could see
how torn up i am
inside,

then you would most likelly have
nightmares forever more

i am so numb inside
you have no idea
how much i need to cry.
since you broke my heart
i have no love left to give,
ill always be sorry
for everything that i put you through.

i am so numb inside
i wish that you could see
everything you've done to me.

im so sorry t.j.
i wish that i could
change the past,
but will never understand,
youll never be just another ex-boyfriend.

so this is my good-bye to you
i will miss you but you must
see, i need to fix
the broken bits
on the inside of me.