I Cannot Poem by Claire Ann Sansolis

I cannot tell how it all started
I cannot tell why your smile brings me warmth
I cannot be blind by your act of kindness
I cannot believe there is attraction inside

I cannot withhold giving out my love and affection when I know it is in my power to act
I cannot control if I have this fondness growing deep inside
I cannot go against my own standards
I cannot speak lies when I know the truth inside

I cannot be swayed by what I see on the outside
I cannot allow my heart to just run wild
I cannot understand why it just cannot be
I cannot see it all but I have faith in love

I cannot explain why I'm tongue tied at times
I cannot deny we have so many things in common
I cannot believe why I'm drawn to you
I cannot assess what the future holds

I cannot simply close all my doors at this time
I cannot judge you based on the facts
I cannot be obvious, I cannot give in
I cannot also tell you I'm trusting Him to lead

I cannot also go on and be misled
I cannot let my feelings bring me counterfeit
I cannot settle for second best
I cannot let my heart deceive me

I cannot manipulate what God has intended
I cannot pursue, I can only wait
I cannot deny who I am destined for
I cannot risk what I can have, for ours that is empty

I cannot be in this predicament ever again
I cannot afford to give my heart away
I cannot have another chance if I make a mistake

I cannot, but I can still make things right, for now and forever