I Don'T Want To Lie. Poem by Vera Zandvliet

First I loved you,
it didn't grew,
but it stayed that way,
and I almost never,
said one thing to you.

Then I met him,
it's my boyfriend now,
First I wouldn't love him,
but later I liked him,
it grew.

We started to talk more,
flirt more,
and hugg more,
but what I felt,
I didn't knew.

I said:
Let's stay friends for a while,
but I later gave you the chance,
I was happy,
but what now?

I'm not feeling more for you,
I am afraid it's getting backwards,
I don't want to hurt you,
but I don't want to get,
the feeling that I am lying to you.

Now a week or two,
I am afraid to say,
all those things,
that are in my way.


I finally did,
what my heart,
told me to do.
I don't want to lie anymore.


I guess it's better,
like this way,
but I wish it could,
stay that way,
that it used to be.

You are,
perfect this way.

I don't,
want you to change.

But I don't feel anything,
anymore for you,
and I am ashamed,
because I liked also someone else.

I did not do things,
with those feelings,
It's not that I trade him for you,
but I can't stick with this feeling,
of lying to you.