Stephanie Fleharty Poems

My Drug
You have to be my drug
When I see you I get immediately ecstatic
When I kiss you I feel weightless
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afraid to love
afraid to be
alive and see
everyone looking down at me
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I’m afraid to love you
I’m afraid to leave you
I’m afraid to hurt you
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i kow it doesnt seem true
but dad, i couldnt live with out you
if your feeling pain just tell me
i'll take the pain from you
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I have only one freind
and oh she is so true
she's been through what i've been through
her heart is still on the mend
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everyones around me, but i feel so alone.
no one can help me, i am unknown
Your not here when i need you.
so is what you say untrue?
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i thought this would make things better
before i end it to write a letter

to tell all who thought they loved and cared
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if god really loved
then why would he hurt the inoccent
if god really cared
then why did he leave me alone with bleeding wrists
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you called me stupid when i said cut
you called me fat when i ate alot
you called me ugly when i put on makeup
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Continuing my self destruction
the hate of lifes construction
the aid of suicidal thought
helps my life as it rots
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