I Loved You On Purpose Poem by Lady N

I loved you on purpose, even though everything inside of me screamed not to,
Even had my family telling me to run away and even then I still chose you,
You see I loved you on purpose,
Was just a fragile little girl, lost in this big old fragile world, the day you tried to pursue me,
I was timid and shy, but one day you caught my eye, and I just knew I had to have you although I tried to play it coolly,
But from that day on I had loved you on purpose,
Never once questioning if you were even worth it,
I guess I just predicted you would be,
Be everything to me that I knew you could be,
And for a while I was right,
Until one day I learned just how selfish is this thing we call life,
And even still I loved you on purpose,
I was loyal since day one, while you went out and had your fun, and maybe that makes me naive,
You said you could no longer wait for me, so I made my decision hastily, to ensure you wouldn't leave,
We had been together for a year, and although I didn't imagine it quite like this here, still I allowed you to come into me,
Although at times a little anxious, still, I rewarded your patience, with the gift of my virginity,
And in return... you gave me hell,
Didnt even wrap it up with a ribbon, but I guess if you had wrapped it up in the beginning, it would have saved both of us the heartache,
But really the icing on the cake, was to find out that you were cheating on me that same day,
Damn, there's only so much that my little heart could take,
But I decided to still love you despite this big a** burden,
Damn, I loved you on purpose
And even still I love you now,
Some days I don't even question it, other days I wonder how,
How you could love someone whose kicked you so many times when you were down,
But then I remember, that I am not a victim,
Hatred can consume a person whole but once I got it out of my system,
I realized, that the fault was not yours, but the fault was yours and mine,
For you were guilty of breaking my heart, and I for trusting too soon,
Because I loved you on purpose,
From here all the way back to the moon,