'I'M Ready Poem by Lisa Visor

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I've been meaning to say this forever ago
I'm sorry for all that I did to hurt her
Big or small it eats at me daily
Yes, I think of her daily
I dream of her often as well
I realize life is too long
for the past to haunt me
but it does
and no matter how hard I try to get away from it, it’s still here

I know my words are short
but the loneliness and ache
seem to penetrate my thoughts
at every waking moment
Perhaps this is my punishment
for leaving her so unloved
so lonely
I loved her but I was numb inside
and she paid for that
even though it wasn’t her burden to bear

After all these years I still miss her
and deep within the want is still there
I look for her in every woman I cross paths with
Her passion
her confidence
the softness of her communication
the laid back down to earth way about her
her strong will got your back kind of love
that loyal trustworthy kind of love
and they never match up to her existence

I know I shouldn’t but I can’t help it
can’t stop it from happening
It’s not that I want to be with her
It’s just that I want that kind of love
I’m now ready for it
My wounds have healed
my heart is whole again
and I’m ready