I'M Scared Of My Life Poem by Nicole Buckland

This is so scary
Not having control of my body
Not having control of me

This is so scary
people don't understand
people just can't see
how much this is hurting me

This is so scary
wishing I wasn't this person
wishing I was a delusion
that I wasn't real

If only people could understand how I feel
the heaviness in me
the sadness in me
the pain in me

This is so scary
wanting to belong
wanting to be heard

I cant even describe the fullness of the pain
it comes upon me physically and emotionally
I suppose I am insane
wishing I wasn't the same

It's like my life is a game
someone is up there, playing with it
This is it
this is how it's meant to be
this is my life
this is me