I Wanna Run Away Poem by Scarlet Shay

I shake in rage
As my heart begins to pound
I run for my knife
Not daring to make a sound
Sliding the moonlit silver right through my skin
Letting it go deeper and deeper within
I don't know why I do this
Maybe it's that loneliness is my favorite pain
Or I just want to lay in someones arms
To make this pain go away
I wanna run away

I eat half my food
Count every calorie I take
Not willing to be the joke
Again this spring break
It hurts when I smile
It hurts when I laugh
Prolly cause I don't belong here,
Their was never a chance 
So I fall to my knees
Shoving my fingers down my throat
But the only thing it does is make me choke
So my beauty has disappeared
Along with the rest of me
But if I want to be alive
I have to follow society
I wanna run away

It's not fair
That I cry every night
Ands that I don't have somebody to hold me tight
All I want is that physical touch
To know it's love
So I will sit here and let my heart ache
Praying it will be the death of me one day
For I never act the right way
Or have a boyfriend who wants to call me baby
Maybe if I run
I can find a guy 
That just wants love
And not those other things that are beyond and above
I wanna run away