I Wish I Never Loved Poem by Thabitha Marakalala

I wish I never loved

I know it's been said that
One shouldn't regret anything
In life,
But I'd be lying if I agreed with this saying,
Cause deep down I'm constantly dying,
All this faking, all this pretending,
are reasons for my breaking.

I wish 'I love you' came with a clause,
If it's not true, you choke down and die,
I wish pain came with a receipt,
If it's too much to handle, you send it back.

I wish life came with instructions,
We would surely know how to deal with all it's hardships without cracking,
I wish I never loved
I'm certain I wouldn't be in so much pain.

I won't cry myself to sleep,
I won't be sinking so deep,
I won't be talking to these walls,
Pleading to find ways to heal my broken heart,
I won't be this torn apart,
I swear I wouldn't be this miserable if I didn't love you.

I wish I never layed eyes on you,
This stupid heart wouldn't
have fallen for you,
I wish I could turn back time,
Prevent you from cutting
into my heart.

I wish I could go back to yesterday,
Drowning this affection,
Turn it into a rejection,
Cause you came with no good intentions.

I wish I never loved you,
Wouldn't be beating up myself,
to get you off my mind,
I wouldn't be feeling so blue,
so incomplete,
I wish I never met you,
I wish I never loved you,
Cause its clear you never loved me.

Tbt-M