Identity Poem by shami giles

There is a window
That I wish I could see
It resembles Imagery of the mother
I wish you could be
This world is an illusion
But in this place I am free
You come and close the doors
To this window that I seek
What happened to the mother that used to love me?
These questions arise until I start
Hemorrhaging
My mother tears away my dreams
My mother steals my soul
She enjoys leaving me
Fending on my own
I am alone
Until you take away my life
My life is not mine
Was it ever really mine?
You allowed yourself to commit a crime
And stripped away my wings
That once allowed me to fly
You stole more than money
You stole my identity
Without showing remorse
You lie to my face
I wish I could find the key to unlock that place
My reality is a dream
Cause you could never do that to me…
These tears I cry may flow
In this river of tears I drown
I drown in this figure I created for me
The mother that I always wished you could be
The true you is forced and never to be found
Because of these lies you speak
I can never hear the truth
I continue to hear this illness
Your love is blindness
Sucking away my youth
Forcing me to grow
Forcing me to know that I was always alone
I will never have that window
I will never have you
I ‘m angry with you
Angry at myself
For seeking this window
That is causing my death
You’ll never know me
You have my identity
You have ripped me bare
This window disappears
Your illness comes to light
While my flight drips away
I wish I could fade away to that place…