Im Leaving Poem by immanuel santos

im leaving not that i know,
im grieving not that for sure,
im jittering not that i couldn't see,
im happy not that without them.

perhaps this is my destiny,
perhaps this is my will,
perhaps this is my chance,
perhaps they know but i was not.

indeed im covered by fears,
indeed im sheltered by tears,
indeed im tied by many flares,
indeed i feel sick that im scared.

but i was not,
im really not,
truly not,

yet i feel this way,
uncovered downcast,
unsounded feelings,
unrhythmic steps,

to feel my last will...

last glamour would touch astonishing,
last sound of breath is reviving,
last undying kiss is long living,
last moment of leaving forever lasting.