Is It Almost Easy? Poem by D. M. L. Catseye

It’s not easy at all.
It’s impossibly difficult.
To not fall. To not jump.
I took the plunge.
And now I’ll pay.
I don’t know what to do.

I can’t cry when I should.
I won’t ever go back to you.
I left you in the dust, when
You thought you left me first.

I’m long gone from that love
It wasn’t real love at all.
We happened because we had to
We were bored,
there was no one else.

Last week I thought I’d regret you
What I let you do to me
But I’m okay with what I’ve done
Except what now will I do?

The person I want to be with
Says he doesn’t want me too
Nothing hurts more than rejection
While being so close to you

You’re the one I left him for,
Because you’ve led me on so far
I thought I’d seen your everything
Don’t want to take it back, but I do

This poem makes no sense to me
But it has words you need to see.
I can’t tell the world how I feel
So I will tell pixels who aren’t even real