Jeff And Me Poem by Roxy Kovács

every inch of me is full of pain
i feel the blood rushing in my veins,
still,
feel nothing just my heart as it aches.
I hear the smiths song on the radio,
and I feel like no one could ever love me the way you would do.
I can't go,
back to the old house,
it's full of memories,
that are haunting me.
I should've said "I missed you"
instead I almost said I hate you.
typical.
I became emotionally unavaliable,
can't understand why.
trauma.
Can you feel my desire?
or I can't even show it anymore?
empty.
i kinda love but kinda hate the new me,
at least now no one can fool me.
cold.
questioning my goals and not knowing who I am,
lack of indentity.
hating every piece of me but still acting like i'm the best all the time.
when
will
it
stop.