Just Lost It.... Poem by Julietta Isla

I thought i loved him, so i gave him everything, my love, my heart, my life, and my virginity, that night i wasn't ready, but he pressured me, i lay there naked, i thought my body was disgusting, but he thought it was pure beauty, the way im shaped is how an older woman should be, my curves satisfied him, once he was in, pain is what i felt, no pleasure what so ever, after he was finished with me, it was all over, we were no more, i never got an i love you back, just a simple kiss, why did you this to me i wondered, i wasn't ready, but you made me anyways, i lost it all in one night, everytime i look in a mirror, i get so sick, was it because of me, i just wonder why you left me, i made love to you, but i guess you thought it was just plain sex, you meant absolutely everything to me, why, oh why, do such a cruel thing...