Just Share... Poem by new heart

Everyday is part of learning
No one never make mistake
Sometimes i feel so sinful
I feel unforgiven
I feel very stupid
But other people experience make my eyes open
This is a small world after all
Our Kingdom is not here
But in heaven
I feel so much pain
Because love that i feel
I should to learn
How to face my fate
I should learn
How to love my situation now

People laugh at me on the street
People talk about me around the house
Because my mental illness
I think that's what happened to me right now
I am glad i can get a job in this situation
I feel dump with all people whom i love
I wish i can make my mom happy
I wish i can help my brothers and their wife
I wish i can give a good education to my son
I wish i can help people in the street who make me cry sometimes
But i am not rich enough to help this world
Because i can't help my own husband
who sick and need me

If you are thinking, i am a strong woman
You are wrong
If you are thinking, i am a brave
You are absolutely wrong
Because, i can stand now
I can walk now
I can smile now
I can talk now
Only because My Lord guide me
My God wipes my tears away
Because i look brave, but i'm shaking inside