Killing Me Each And Everyday Poem by Nate Jones

everyday i die inside me
biting me with their teeth
got shot down
with meaningless words
falling to the ground
badly does hurt
and everytime i'm living again under rain
i'm killed again and theres little pain
just because i'm not talking to you
doesn't mean i hate you
it just means i'm scared of myself
my distorted views ills my health
i'm going to go hide in my secret place
and slit my wrist robbing the walls with living blood
i have concrete on my feet and its a race
and theres pit full of mud
can't escape these feelings
and the negitive thinking
so i will embrace them
instead of condemn
i will get lost within i will die alone
leaving it so it never is shown
never to feel your warmth never to be loved
never to rise above
i can't be open to you
i refuse to be true
so i will shut up forever
this bitterness is my motivator
i will cut
i will cut myself
trapped in this rut
i will hide from you
because i'm through
with this world of hate
you will never find me
i locked my soul in this cage
you look at me
i turn away and bleed
we all feel the heat
you try to help me
and to set me free
i push you away and become silent
inside i'm beyond violent
the more i hurt
the deeper i cut
i feel your fragile touch
when i see you hurt
i know i did this i'm sorry
another f*cked up story
i'm sorry i hate myself
it resonates to yourself
can't you not see this
that i bleed for you
i get so pissed
when i hear your name i wanted to cry
i didn't mean to lie
i'm so confused
why have i been misused
i see other people happily talking to each other
the loneliness i try to always cover
it makes me mad
it's really sad
my emotions burn like hell fire
jealousy makes me want to kill them all
i'm so tired of this fall
this viris is invading my heart
and it's sharp
nobody cares about me
i'm not even real
everybody cares about you
and it's true
you can't talk to someone because you hurt
when you don't know why you hurt
don't blame me i can't help the way i feel