Leave Me In The Dark Poem by Andrus Cassian

Shared attention, maybe I am more lost than I thought
here separate me, cut me up into a hundred different pieces
I'm already being pulled into a hundred different directions
Why can't it all stop if for a moment
let it all stop
enough to capture these scattered thoughts brought to life
running amok in this realm of living
Can I have a moment to myself, a place of solitude and comfort
can I have a small second to hide and be alone
to escape this soap opera lifestyle and breathe
collect the things I've lost in this scavenger hunt
My promise, it's starting to crumble
I promised to try, try harder than I ever have before
be perfect, be this carbon copy model
something out of a book, out of a movie
but I'm made out of flesh and bone
not paper and string
How can I commit when I'd rather just be omitted
Something shine on a right choice
my judgement is failing and I could really use some guidance
only one caveat if you will indulge me:
Please don't tell me, don't say to me
I need to give a much needed tour to the recesses of my world
it'll just leave unanswered questions and heavy answers
I don't need everyone know, not just yet
that I am angry at no one...angry at everyone...
AANGRY AT MYSELF! ! ! !
It's like I'm in a corner of a brightly in the room
and an unknown hand silently turned off the light
leaving me in the dark with a smirk
and a glowing imprint on the wall
'We are all mad here'
if that's true, than why am I the only one who exists
in this dark cramped space
breaking down this wall with my face
to no avail....