Leaving Poem by Susan Basile

You have pushed me away
my entire life.
Never holding me down,
never helping me when I needed it.
You were never there,
As you will never be.
You were only there to
push me down.

Look at me now,
more grown than you will ever be.
Accomplished
in all that I have done so far.
I have made it farther now,
then you ever have.
Just the fact alone that I am 15
and you are 39 is ludicrous.
I grew up, and you blew up.
You make me sick.
Go ahead keep calling yourself
a mother.
Just like your mother called herself
a mother.

You always called me a failure,
always said I was going nowhere.
Always told me to just give up
because it isn't worth the pain
in the end.
If only you could feel the pain I have.
You had your time to shine,
and you blew it.
Now it is my time,
and I am going to shine like the north star.

All I can do is laugh at you.
There is no helping you,
no talking to you,
you are nothing to me.
I will have you in my past soon,
but it isn't soon enough.
As long as it comes eventually
that's fine.

You say you tried,
and you loved me,
and it was my fault.
That I was the bad child.
Go ahead,
keep telling yourself that.
They know the truth,
and so do I.
You have lied about your life
so much,
you actually believe the lie,
the lie of your life!

I am leaving, and never looking back.
There is nothing here for me,
Nothing to progress on.
All you do is demine me,
Hurt me, want me somewhere other than here.
I am going to make your wish come true.
Ever hear you don’t know what you have,
until it is gone?
Well guess what, I am gone.
I hope you made the right choice.
Once I walk out that door,
I promise you on my life that you will never see me again.

You got your wish.
I am gone for good