Lesson Learnt Poem by Rima Sharda

Lesson learnt
What is it that's worrying me so much 
An insecurity suffocating me as such
Why is it that i cant share it with anyone
is it real or just a phantom on run 
I may pretend to be strong and mature 
Deep inside me is a child scared and unsure
Looking for acceptance not rejection 
Wearing a mask of confidence a deception 
Its love and approval that i desire 
Which i have aplenty but for more i sigh
Its the only pray i never forget each day
Lord let love flow in abundance my way
Let praise rain and appreciations shower
Let approvals of my doings be as Huge as a tower
But today when my chance came to approve
To acknowledge Someones work i just disapproved
Burning with jealousy i just turned away 
Pretended its not worth it i just walked away
My Soul my being knew i was doing wrong
My body walked straight pretending to be strong
But my heart wilted with unknown pain
My inner voice told me nothing i shall gain
For you shall reap what you sow
What you desire give others in a row
I am sorry o lord please forgive me 
I forgot its to live and to let others be
As i realised my mistake my heart grew light 
My inner voice comforted me as it knew my plight
It said stop worrying Dont feel troubled
Remember  when you make others happy your happiness doubles