Letting You Go Poem by Allison Unknown

I lay on my bed
In a tight little ball
Tears streaming down my face
I scream out your name
No answer
The music is blasting
Only you can hear
I cant take this anymore
Being alone not in your arms
I feel so cold
I want you with me
Life is starting to fade from me
I want to see your face
I want to hear your voice
Where are you
I keep asking myself
You promised you'd show
I see a picture of you and me
We look so happy
I grab the picture
I clean the dust from the glass
I kiss my fingers and put them on your face
My tears are coming down heavier now
I feel like I'm going to drown in them
God I wish you were hear
My sadness turns into pure anger
I throw the picture of us at the wall
It shatters into millions of pieces
I now just recognized what I have done
I worry I won't be able to fix it
I fall to the ground
Pick up the picture and hold it to my chest
I scream out your name
Ace, Ace, Ace
Im lost without you
I hit the wall with my fist
I gouge a hole into the wall
The pain felt so good
It felt almost as good as that time at the lake
It was the first time you said 'I love you' to me
I miss back then
We were going to graduate together
We were going to go to college together
After that we were going to get married
Have children
Have a family
We can't do those things anymore
Now that you're gone
I think it was my fault
My fault you died
Coming to my house for our date
I wait their in my midnight blue dress
The whole night I waited
Wondering when you were going to come
You didn't show
You never did again
I went to school wanting an explanation
Someone came up to me and said 'Im so sorry'
I didnt know what they ment
Until I heard over the speaker
'Yesterday a student named Ace died in a car accident'
I screamed and everyone looked at me
I broke down into tears
I ran through the front doors of our school
Didn't stop until I reached my house
My mom was just getting off the phone
She was crying
She just found out too
I think she knew what our plans were going to be
In the future
In life
We went to his funeral
I just stood there
Watching everyone as they cry
Tears were streaming down my face
I didn't say anything for the next couple of days
I didn't eat
I didn't sleep
My mother was getting worried
She took me to a therapist
I just sat there
They tried and tried
Nothing worked
My mom gave up on me
She stopped trying to get me to talk
She stopped making food for me even
I was just a waste of space
I decided that I should talk once for my mother
I opened my mouth to say something to her
All that came out were sobs
She came and hugged me
Kissed my forehead
I missed being hugged
I missed being kissed
I went to school the next day
No one dared to talk to me
I sat with my friends and they just stared at me
I probably looked like a mess
Red, puffy eyed girl that looked like she wanted to kill someone
I came home that day and went into my room
I just layed on my bed and stared at the ceiling
I look at my walls
Pictures of you are everywhere
I get up and tear them all down
I rip them up and throw them in my trash
I take my trash outside in the back
Take a match and light it
Throw it into the trash can
I fall to the ground and watch it burn
The smoke is black
It flys into the sky like a free bird
A bird that is a dove
Meaning freedom and life
I look back at the smoke
It starts to rain
Puts the fire out
I go inside
My mother is just staring at me
I walk past her and go to my bedroom
I blast the radio
It was our song
I scream and shout
Cry myself to sleep
I don't go to school the next day
I stay in my room and lay on my bed
Just laying there
Not doing anything
I scream
No one can hear me
You can't hear me anymore
You're not with me anymore
You can't hug me like you used too
My heart just hurts too much to think about you anymore
That is why
I'm letting you go