Live Poem by Samm Mulkins

Laying in my bedroom,
Afraid to open my eyes.
My dreams are much better,
Than this painful, lonely life.

When they finally peer out
Into the dark of night,
I hope that morning never comes,
That I never see sunlight.

There's nothing left to live for,
But I don't want to leave...
I'm scared of what comes after,
I don't know who to believe.

The world comes crashing down
As I am huddled in my bed.
I know that nothing will ever cleanse
The darkness in my head.

Would anyone care if I never wake?
Would anybody cry?
But I know I won't take the risk-
I'm much too scared to die.

Sometimes I want to end it all,
Let the world fade to black,
But I know that if I do
There is no way of coming back.

People smile, people cry,
And all the while I just watch.
Maybe there's something I've missed,
Some way to connect the dots.

I know there's nothing left to live for,
But I'm not ready to go.
I don't know what comes after,
And I'm scared of the unknown.

The shadows all around me 
Wait for me to just give in.
I fight them all the time,
But my strength is wearing thin.

There's nothing left to live for,
But I guess I have to try.
I just might be surprised
At who would truly cry.