Looking For Answers Poem by Hakima Smaali

I don't have the happiness keys
I don't know a way free of tears
I don't know how to get passed this I feel
I'm wounded, I'm hurt
the scars are showing, the wounds so deep, won't heal
I don't know how to get over this pain I feel
I can no longer concentrate
I can no longer function right

I'm lost in this world's sea
looking for whom I should be
looking for answers, looking for a path
nothing but darkness I can see

I'm runing out of time
lost much of it searching for whom to blame
looking for whom changed me
when I've should blame me
I'm no longer the same

I know we all fall sometimes
but we all have a chance to rise once more
a chance to stand up high tall
I didn't get a chance to recover
I've been beaten all over gain
over and over

life did me unfair
too heavy to bear
my destiny has betrayed me
it certainly didn't care
I know it's just a matter of time
but I can't hold on
I'm not that strong

have I been right
have I been wrong
looking for answers
but answers are not yet found

no one is here next to me
no one is around
keep looking for answers
but answers are yet not found
I'm used to be proud
proud of whom I am
proud of what I do
but now it feels: I'm just an idiot
and idiot who had no clue
lost, so many questions
I don't know what to do