Love Lost Poem by krysten slater

iv'e been waiting and waiting on this thing called love, but when it finally arrived i got scared and i kept pushing and pushing it away. scared of what was to become of it, scared that this thing i been lookin for would disappear back to where ever it came from. so i tryed not to fall or dive in head first, thinkin maybe that pool of love was just too shallow. i been waiting, lookin and searching for the unexpected. something to make my heart start back up again, make the blood flow again, bring me a reason to sing again. give me something iv'e never had before. then i had it. i had him. but couldnt understand why someone would want someone like me. a women with with all these scars, carrying around all this pain and hurt and disappointment. how could anyone want, truely want someone like that? how could any man deal with a women with so much baggage? now that he's gone and its gone i miss that feeling. being scared not knowing whats gonna happen. my soul dancing to the beat of his heart. life not making sense. the moment he leaves and even though you know he's coming back your heart doesnt make a move until his return. this may no make sense but love never really does because it cant be explained or defined. i want it back and i may just have to realize that it never will.