My Aleph Poem by Eva Clara Harahap

If we haven’t met before in these lifes….
Why my soul feels glad when I met you?
If we haven’t met somewhere in these lifes….
Why does my heart fit yours this way?

If we didn’t have the past story together….
Then why does the beat of your heart return my call? ....
If previously you are not mine….
Then why I always feel we belong together…..

I never know why we’ve met again in this time….
The time never seem to pass…..
You are still the person I recognize….
You are still the person I share my life with….

At first, I do want to run away, because I can’t take it…..
I don’t understand all the secrets of life…
But If I am not made for you, then why does my soul tell me that I am?
Is there any way we could stay away from each other? ....

If you are not for me, then…
Why I can always see the track of your pain and tears…
If we haven’t made for each other, then…
Why I can always find the trace of my past inside your eyes….

If I don’t need you, then…..
Why I always dream of you as my companion in these lifes? ...
If I don’t want you, then….
Why does my heart keeps on calling your name? ....

I surrender everything to the wisdom of the past…..
But I am praying you are the one I build my home with…..
I hope that you are the one I share my life with….
And I wish that you could be the one I die with….

Many times I miss you…..
My soul is so strong in reassembling yours….
It always takes my breath away….
I breathe you into my heart and soul….

Because I love you so…..
Whether it is wrong or right…..
I will proudly stand by your side….
Never let you go out of my sight…..

I hope I will love you all my lifes….
Through all the gates of time I will meet you again…
Until I found someone exactly like you….
My whole life is in your hands….

Copyright @ Eva Clara Harahap’Oct 2011

PS. For the ALEPH of my life, I will pray that I will be able to recognize you again in the next lifes ahead of us….Thank You for all that you are to me….