My Apologies To All I Know - 2 Poem by Sujeet Kumar Vishwakarma

I know I could have been much better,
I know I could have given, more time and space,
I know I should have shared my life,
I now feel in my life, that vacant space.

I had been busy for the sake of it,
I never knew what to prioritise.
I have been lying to myself all along,
My life's plan, I could never devise.

I have my apologies to all my friends,
& family who always stood by my side.
I never was there, at the time of their need,
The true essence of life, I could never abide.

I never was strong, I faked at all time,
And raised expectations, broke them all.
It is now that I see, I'm going down,
The depth of my dug, ditch I fall.

Who do you expect shall excuse my err,
As I find my conscience won't excuse.
I see the repurcussions of all my deeds,
That make me disdained, and ever more confused.

It's my heart on paper, Not just a prose,
It's me challenging my Conscience sublime.
What we make, becomes of life,
I've started questioning myself this time.....