My One Release 2 \ Poem by layla joseph

As I sit here and watch
as that cut slowly bleeds out
I wonder why it feels so good
Why I want to do it again
Why even with all the pain you cause
Its never enough why I want to cause more
Why I would inflict even more pain
More pain to myself
Why it makes me feel so good
Why is this the only way I can cope
Cope with every thing going on
Why I cope by cutting myself
Why does the blood remind me that im alive
When I feel so dead inside
So dead from all that you do
Why I feel that this is the only way
The only way to escape from you
why is that pain so wanted
When the pain you cause isn’t wanted at all
Why does the sight of the blood
Cause me to smile
Why does it make me smile
When every thing else makes me want to cry
Why does the blood make me feel free
Until it stops to bleed
Then another cut I must make
To feel free just a little while longer
Why is it I only feel like this
while the blood is sliding down my arm
So I keep on cutting till theirs no were else to cut
The marks of my undoing will stay their
Until the day I die
Just another scar to remind me of all you did
Just another scar to show the world that slowly you killed me