Neutrality Poem by atticus denny

Neutrality
I feel free today, and nothing's unusually pleasant
I feel sluggish and dull, but I feel whole today
After experiencing such passionate acute pain induced by none other than my own emotional masochism
This feeling feels gluttonous, it feels undeserving and it feels wasteful
Is it far too Icarian to presume I can find art in my satisfaction?
As I have never been able to find beauty in my contentment I'll let this emotional respite pass me by
For in my elation I fatigue but I feel my best, but in my misery I malfunction and I look my best
A state of neutrality is so unbearable and so foreign but I've been looking for it for so long.