Night Sky Poem by Dark Cloud

Alas to these dreadful circumstances
And how so willingly I throw myself into them!
What is it I seek?
This sensation I cannot possess while in content
Must one always suffer to feel alive?
Must one always love so that they may hate?
I wonder where will lie my fate
As I tempt God’s wrath
As I dance with demons
When did it become unclear?
The fun is gone and now I fear
The goodness and grace that I once made
Has now become an unlawful shade