No Bravado Or Confidence, Just A Confusing Coincidence Poem by Andrus Cassian

How long can I pretend? my facial expression is blank
But my thoughts are competing in a race
and it always separates into four different worlds
There's no bravado or confidence, maybe coincidence
but it's only confusion in the state of missing
a break from all of this is all I hope to achieve
but there's only one instance...
Once or twice I've held a dream of once in a lifetime
It was the blue eyes that dealt me in
I had high hopes but they came out empty wishes
But hey, you can't always get what you want
I'm speechless but I have a means to say something
I only saved one dance to a song because it's all I ask
with words, I've obtained romance status
but within my actions, I'm just dead weight
For how long can I pretend, well what can I say
my facial expression is blank because life is a bullet
My thoughts are competing in a race
since for the life of me, I can't shake the image of us together
a break from all of this I need
but I've only found one way to help keep you from me
I guess I was wrong
there's only way that I'd be doing something right...
but what's right for me is having one dance
since it'll be you and me in a fond memory