No Where No How No Way! Poem by Jessica Henning

when i think of all the things that eventually brought me here
i cant smile at the past nor shed a single tear...
i see friends they came and went some still here today
they make the pain bareable but it doesnt go away...
when i think of who i was and what i walked out to be
i know that its not the same girl, its honestly not me! ...
but everyone thinks im okay and that i havent lost my ground
they think i finally have grown up and turned myself around...
but no one really knows what is hidden in this heart
they dont know all the reasons of why i fell apart...
they could never understand me without blaming someone true
they never would get over it or know just what to do...
im afraid of what theyll see if i tell them whats been done
not afraid of all of them particularly just one...
my mother shes no fool shell think im lying my way through
shell be completely blinded because she didnt have a clue...
i dont want people to look at me and see my hurt so deep
i dont want them to hug me... ill soon begin to weep....
i dont want any thing to change i still want it all to stay
i dont want them trying to fix me no where no how no way!