Not, Never The Same Poem by Brandy Bee

I do NOT want to live



Life is NOT helpful

But hurtful...



It is NOT beautiful

But sometimes ugly...



I do NOT want to know you

Fear i will get attached...



I do NOT want to be liked

I want to be loved...



I do NOT want to be wanted

I want to be needed...



I do NOT want you to tell me you love me

I want you to tell me you are IN love with me...



I do NOT want to be the brat

I want to be the fool...

But i do NOT want to be fooled...



I do NOT want to care

I want you to earn my care...



I dont NOT want love

Unless i am loved...



I do NOT respect others

Unless they respect me...



I do NOT lie

I just simply do not tell the truth...



I do NOT want to see him in my dreams anymore

For I'd do anything to forget...



I want him to finally leave my mind...



I do NOT want to cry myself to sleep anymore

For the tears feel like fire to my cheeks...



I do NOT want to hurt anymore

For I've tried so hard to forget...



I do NOT change for anyone

For if you dont like how i am then leave...



I do NOT like b/s

Dont fool yourself...



I do NOT want to even open my eyes

For fear of a memory of him...



I will NEVER be the same because of him...



I will NEVER trust the same...



I will NEVER love the same...



I will NEVER care about him as i once did...



I will NEVER regret anything i said



I NEVER lied about anything, for i meant it all...

....even if i was the only one who did....



Blessed Be!



-HoneyBee