Not Pain Poem by Ruvimbo Chekure

Theres not even pain, its just- mental
Maybe a heartbeat or two at times
Or looking into the version of you
That seemed like it wasnt the real you
Alas, it was the one you showed me was the act

I saw you with her today
And tried to make sense of it
Did karma come with a mirror
For i remembered a boy who loved me
Just like i did you
But when my true love came
Didnt i ditch the former no matter how nice he was

Well for me that story is complex too
For i gained no love obviously
But i also never loved the one i did wrong
What of you?

My room is a mess again
Like my mind i dont bother to clean it again
Tried filling the void you made deeper
With the words of a boy i just found
But i couldnt go on
I didnt love him like he also didnt me

Im convinced we will meet again, almost sure
But what will i have to say to you
Its not pain, just mental