Note To Self Poem by josselyn marroquin

I wrote this about my sister. When I was about 5 my mother left my sisters and I for guys and drugs. She has hurt us in more ways than I can explain... She has abused us, emotionally and physically. She loved our pain. Now she for the tenth time she is trying to be a 'mother' I wont make another mistake, because she isn't fooling me.. She may fool my sister but not me. I am smarter than that. I will not pretend to be happy when she tries to talk to me. She told me herself she hates me. So i will protect my baby sisters. Who are 14 and 12. I'm 16. And my sister is 17... And I'm the protector... It isn't right... But no one will ever see what is wrong.....anyone out there has any advise message me. Or if u want to hear the whole background story message me...I need the advice