Numbness Poem by Miss B..

feeling
sight
emotion
passion
pain

pain is deep
intense
you wish it to be gone
far. so very far
and now
there's only one way,
numb it.

'one shot
two shot
three shot
floor'
ten shot
twelve shot
come champ!
more!

numbness
nice! so sweet
yes!
more!

locked up memories
stay there
deep
inside
the core

pain
be buried
stay there
so sore
you're not wanted
and therefore....


......light! so sweet
let's slow down time
you're amazing!
are you mine?

my how wondeful
it so is
how your warmth
reveals my sins
how it tells me to move on
so my true self
i can spawn......

.......here babe smoke this
drink one more!
here babe take this
don't be a bore!
you know
we're all
quite the same.
come on drink till
you don't know your name

ahhh the numbness feels so good
how my feelings
need not be understood
if i could just disappear
no!
the tears
will
now
my makeup smear!
no the numbness
is wearing off
come g!
pass me
some of that spoff......


........wow that rainbow
so reminds me of you
how is it possible
that this love is true?
can it be?
this love so grand?
could i truly
have control in this hand?
that's impossible!
it could never be
true love itself
will never come to me.......

.......no feeling
no life
no pain
and no strife
i choose
i am
i will
i be
everything that happens
is all up to me

and because i choose
that's the way it will be.