Outs Poem by Belle Violet

Remember:
"Should I be packing my things instead of unpacking them! ? "
"Maybe! " And, then…. you basically chased after me.
Remember:
"What's that song that reminds you of me? "
"Stay A Little Longer"
"So you want me to stay a little longer? "
"No, Moo, I want you to stay forever."
Remember:
"The kid at work said I'm grumpy. Is it home or work or both? I said both."
"Both? ? What's wrong at home? "
"Nothing, You know, it's just something you say.. It doesn't mean anything."

When I gave you these outs
you should have taken them
so we could talk it out.
It'd have been less painful
in the long run.
You told Greg,
"There's no way she didn't
see this coming".
Really, Kurt?
Please explain to me
that line of thinking...
Did you assume I read minds?
Did you think
you were talking to me
when you had Greg on the line?
Did you think he'd tell me
for you so you
wouldn't have to?
I just have to ask:
What kind of man does that?
Clams up then talks
about his girl
behind her back?
If there's a problem at home
and you tell the work kids,
and you tell me you did,
and I ask you
what you meant by it,
don't you think
you should explain it?
Give me the chance
to digest and correct it?
You said it was nothing,
So how could I fix anything?
Have you any idea
what this has done to me?
Greg saying
I should have known?
You allowing
it to go on?
How could I pinpoint
when you hate everything,
it was specifically me
and home?
And how could I do anything?
It's like you wanted
to hang me
with this invisible rope.
And then turn around
and say you're relieved.
Don't you think
if you'd talked
and we worked it out
we both would have
felt relief?
It's not just with me,
you do the same at work,
and,
with your friends.
Pretty sure Greg
had to explain
to Travis
your problem with him.
Did you assume with me
he'd do the same?
He didn't.
He stayed out of
our relationship.
Baby, you'll be
unhappy forever
in all your endeavors
if you don't tell people
what bothers you.
You've been unhappy because
you won't speak your mind.
You weren't unhappy
with me entirely,
you acted moody, but, fine.
And, silly me, I was thinking
‘he'll say something if it's me,
it must just be
work driving him crazy'.
Because when I gave you
a chance to open up
and be a man,
you didn't bother because
you were afraid.
So instead of fixing anything,
you cowered away,
until you got up the courage
to just push me away.
But, I saw it coming?
I should have known something?
There's no way this could have
felt sudden?
Are you even listening
to what
you're saying?
And do you understand now
YOU were the reason
we were decaying?