Over The Edge Poem by Akeem Mair

Shit.. This is my life right now
I've lost so much of me in the past

Shit.. the pain hurts me so much that all I could do is just laugh

I'm drinking my alcohol while I'm pressing my foot upon on the gas

I wiped away all my tears I'm hoping that I crash

Let's end it all here no more worrying about the past

Thinking of my middle school days when all the bullies called me trash

All of my crushes I've ever loved, all have given me a pass

Nobody wanted my ass no more, damn.. I can see it all clear

As I'm taking a swig from my alcohol, I'm driving without no fear

The adrenaline is kicking in I'm going a hundred an eighty

I'm feeling the wind blowing, my engine roaring from my Mercedes

caught the attention of a deputy who was sitting there and was waiting

Whop! whop! He turns the sirens on as he chase right behind me

Like "what the hell you want officer? Can't you tell that I'm busy! "

I'm trying find myself, while Im trying to end it early

They got the choppers on me, as they shine inside my car

I'm on the news granny, I can't explain it because it's hard

You wanna know, why I'm doing all of this in my fancy car?
Granny I've given up on life cause it took so much from me

All the happiness I've ever felt, life would turn to robbery

All things I've haven't done, all the trophies I've never won

All the women I've ever wanted, I have never made a son
As the world spins around the sun, I'm getting older like everyone

And i still ain't seen my dreams! ! ! granny life's no longer fun!

Why the hell am I still alive? when I can't live the life I wanna

I have seen it in my dreams at night, but life's the same every summer

Just end it now God what's the point of me lasting any longer?

In my darkest moments I could always see that light
It burns in my heart like..
"are you really quitting now? "
You drinking all your pain away like it's going to help you smile
I begin to laugh so hard as my tears turn to joy

The lord showed me a moment in my life, happy as a boy

When things didn't matter cause my fantasies were better

As I slowed my car down, and let the officer pull me over

He drew out his weapon as he walked up to my car

He saw all of the tears upon my face and the liquor smell was hard

As he slowly took the bottle from me, he opened up my door

As I stepped outside the car, he hugged me and said "the pain is gone, no more."