Please Stop This Pain Poem by new heart

Can i ask to the morning sun?
Why i feel like walk in the dark?
Why i feel so lonely in this morning?
Why i feel like live in the empty island?
Why i feel like has been hit by a truck?
Why i never feel peaceful in my own house or
people said my husband house?
Is this because nothing really mine?
Even my soul is not mine?
Even i can't have my pride?
Even people running around for judging me?
Even my cry and pray do not have meaning for God?
Only because my sin that i have asked forgiveness before
to God and to the person itself?
Should i kiss their legs only to set me free from this trial?

Why can you just stop torture me?
Are you really devil?
Please keep your promise
Promise to stop this torture
November you said...
Please stop it...
You make me going insane
I can't trust anyone
I want help my husband
He is sick
Can you just leave us alone?
If you have a good intention to help
Why can you just help as human not a system?
I just want to write
Why i can not?
Are you making me as a puppet show?
How could you make my self miserable
for your own good?
What are you going to prove?
Let me walk.... don't follow me...
I only need God to follow me
Not you....
Not human....
Not devil....
Not ghost....
I hope you are still human and get my message