Pretending Poem by Lizzy Scott

Surrounded by people who don’t even know me
What’s my name, how old am I,
Can you tell me?

They pretend to know who I am
But inside I know their pretending,
A roller coaster ride
And Its not pending.

Do you know how I feel,
Do you know my life
Broken and shattered like a glass vase
I’m trying to tell you how I feel,

That you don’t even know me
My life is cut to peaces,
Do you know that, can you show me?
Picking up this mic, trying to speak these words

You think its just music as I’m trying to search
For a voice in a crowd, a face in a million,
Someone in my life, who’s there, and who’s stayin’

Like sand on a beach, the stars in the sky
You don’t know me and I wonder why.
I’ve told you my life and you’ve told me yours
How have you forgotten me,
Cause inside it hurts
When you fumble around

Grasping for straws,
Of what my name is
and who you thought I was.

Being ignored and shunned,
Or pushed down for control
I’m used to the torment,
Cause the news is old.

On second thought,
Why am I even writing this down?
As you pretend to wonder why I’m like this,
Living it down.

“Just go with the flow,
Do what you know other people do,
Don’t be different, oh no.”

You say to yourself, hiding in the darkness,
Following the grain, losing yourself
In how boring it is to be sane.

So you press me for answers of all my strange ways,
You tell me I’m a criminal
For why I don’t stay.

Sometimes bad things come and steal your life,
And inside now I’m pondering and wondering why...