Pretending Poem by Michelle Garces Maraon

pretending is my easiest way
of hiding myself........
Forgetting the pain, the sorrows and
my quietly best defense..
Am I pretending? yes i am! ! !
Just to let them know that im ok,
happy, alive and full of courage...



But when their gone, and when im alone.....
the tears in my eyes freely flows.
i want to tell the world, i wanted to show it,
to express all my thoughts, , burst it out.!
WHATS HAPPENING TO ME? ? ? ? ! ! !



It'll stop when the pain is somehow gone..
when there's nobody would care to asked.....
Which im deeply drowning from my tears
and it feels like im slowly dying....



I practiced myself to be tough.to look strong, to
denied and pretend..its my only defenses is to
laugh and to look happy......mgm