Ptsd Poem by Alexander Max

Water:

I dont know whats happening to me

I feel like i'm drowning in a sea

Is it ptsd

Or is it just blatant misery

I don't want to lie

I don't want to die

All i can do is try

But i can only sigh

I can not defy

The laws of life

A constant strife

The endless fight

Of hurt and fright

Is there something wrong with me

Here i see

People manipulating me

In the sea of ptsd

I am swallowed by a ocean of guilt

A tide with no one to confide

The sea the tide

A spinning hurricane

Fear and disdain

Is it love or just pain

Crying in the rain

For my mother

Are you ok

I feel so astray

You made me lose my way

And yet i stay

To this day

I write and play

Though i cannot escape

Through the dark face of the moon

To the pain inside

I tried to reside

But inside I just died