Questions Poem by Maya Reid

It’s time to ask you a few pointless questions
Just sit; just listen and see
See if it’s all worth saving me
Here goes: All the things you said
Which were true?
What’s true still?
Are you trying to let me go
Or are you my really real?
Are you okay with being the string that saves me
Or are you the scissors that cut me free?
Have you grown numb to my touch
And deaf to my words
Is everything the same but the eyes to the mask
Or does this future not match our past?
I know that you never asked to be here
But I want to know if you’re here to stay
Or by trying to hold on to you
Am I only pushing you away?
All I need to know is
Can you hear me?
Do you feel me?
Might you be the one to heal me?
Or did I hurt you?
Do you fear me?
Do you hate to even be near me?
Do you still have no regrets
Or am I what you’re trying to forget
You I’ll never forget
Why’d you have to find me?
Everything was fine and fake before
What am I saying?
I love you for opening my door
It’s just that I sometimes miss my hiding spot
And I think you miss it, too
But, see, I never would have loved life
If I hadn’t first loved you
And I know that what you see
Isn’t always what you get with me
How do I tell what’s my imagination
From what’s really there?
Are you really the one who’s different
Or am I just waiting for you to walk away with your nail?
Tell me, just how much do you really care?
Because, let’s face it
I’m addicted
And I’m never gonna quit you
Just give me my fix one last time
And one more time after that
I can’t quit you
But I’m scared you’re quitting me
Did you forget me?
Forget how much I need you?
Forget how at home I feel when I’m with you?
Forget how much I miss you?
And are you still counting on me?
Do you still need me?
Whatever happened to:
I don’t know how I ever lived without you?
Cuz I don’t know how I ever lived without you
And I’m too scared to try to try
All I want to know is this:
Where is your heart?
Where have you gone?
Tell me now,
Cuz I don’t really feel you
Here
Anymore
Do you still feel me there?
All I wanna do
Is all I’ve ever done
I wanna hold you tight
And steal your pain away
Am I wrong for feeling
The way I feel?
For feeling like you
Are where I belong?
Am I wrong here?
If I am just tell me – I’ll walk away
Leave you with a smile
Behind which is everything
Only you could ever understand
What am I doing- I can’t give this to you
Just damn it all to hell
The only important question
Has an answer you won’t tell.