Rainstorm Beside Darapidap Beach Poem by Jan Andrei Manzano

Joyless and miserable, the heaven sobs at Darapidap Beach,
As I rest on the sand, breathe in the salty air, and hear the chaos of the waves.
It is a murky crepuscule and the weather seems to imitate my devastated eyes—
My eyes that used to sparkle, that used to carry a million suns…
My eyes that now are closed, exhausted, helpless, and lifeless.

The clouds are not fluffy, they are terrifyingly black and heavy,
The waves—that used to be tranquil, now have gone ballistic already;
And, oh! Here I am, poor me, letting the tortuous wind take away my sanity,
My fortune, my hope, my spirit, and oh, my loving salvation;
Such a hideous sight of Darapidap Beach… so depressed, so cold, so lonely me.

There comes the earthshaking thunder, the outrage of the lightning,
And the spiky raindrops that scare the gentlemen and the ladies;
Everybody rushes to the shades of leaves, to the roofs, to their homes,
While I stay here, by the mad sea that resembles my wild emotions—
My emotions that used to be welcoming, vibrant, adventurous, and placid.

With all the power left in me, I ran towards the mad sea…
I lifted my hands as if I could reach the stormy firmament;
I let the rain shower and embrace my entirety as I summoned my demons,
My darkness, my sadness, my madness—and freely danced with them in the rain;
And then, crazy and pathetic me, I screamed while my eyes streamed warm tears.

With all the power left in me, I cried by the mad sea…
The fishes heard my wail, the corals saw my horrible face, and the sand felt my grief;
A very long moment, I let the violent rain; A very long moment, I let my melancholy;
For a very long moment, I let my demons bathe with me in the rain;
And then, everything suddenly stopped.

I waited for the rainbow to appear, I waited for the sun to please me;
But, earlier was twilight, now it is night… Will I ever be saved?
Beside the Darapidap Beach, I rest on the sand and breathe in the salty air.
One by one, the stars scintillated and the moon lustered my loathsome form,
And I cried once more… Am I finally saved? Am I happy again?