Regret 01 Poem by Kira Bloom

Most of these memories are hazy
But the visions run oh so vividly
Betrayal shoots me
An ever apparent entity living
In the core of me
You knew how I was hurting
Prolonged the agony
Decided to get high and stop by
Liquor on my breath
Pain in my eyes
You laid me down to give me love
And all you felt was lust
Asked if I was ok
Covered my mouth with yours
Before I could say
Knew I couldn’t say no
Knew I wouldn’t say yes
For you it was the best
For me it was like the rest
A forced violation
A pain and a regret
I should have seen the cynical gleam
It wasn’t about affection
It was about owning me
Having the mystery every one sees
And I can be this way
I can walk and not crawl away
I’ll regret the whole dame thing
Back away with the I’m sorry baby
You can’t lose what was never yours in the first place
Things will never be the same
But dame they will never change